{"id":94260,"date":"2026-01-12T01:32:01","date_gmt":"2026-01-12T06:32:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/muslimmatters.org\/2026\/01\/11\/far-away-3-wounded-copy\/"},"modified":"2026-01-19T03:15:01","modified_gmt":"2026-01-19T08:15:01","slug":"far-away-4-a-safe-place","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/muslimmatters.org\/2026\/01\/12\/far-away-4-a-safe-place\/","title":{"rendered":"Far Away [Part 4] – A Safe Place"},"content":{"rendered":"

Gravely wounded and fevered, Darius wakes among strangers who may become the first real family he has ever known.<\/em><\/p>\n

Read Part 1<\/a> | Part 2<\/a> | Part 3<\/a><\/p>\n

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Safe<\/h2>\n

I drifted in and out of a gray place. Sometimes I was in my father\u2019s house and the rats were chewing at my shoulder instead of the crop. Sometimes I was in the temple pool, and the carp had human faces and they were all my father, all of them judging me in silence.<\/p>\n

Once I woke up enough to feel something sharp slide into my skin near the wound, and I tried to fight, but a strong hand pressed my good shoulder down and a calm voice said, \u201cLie still. I am drawing the heat out. Do you want to keep the arm or not?\u201d Then the darkness pulled me under again.<\/p>\n

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When I finally woke properly, I lay on a narrow pallet in a small, clean room. My shoulder throbbed dully. The air smelled of herbs, smoke, and something bitter I did not recognize. Light filtered in through a paper-covered window, soft and white. Shelves on the walls held clay and glass jars containing herbs, and I knew not what else. A rectangular plaque on the wall displayed words in a flowing script that I could not read, and an ornate wooden desk and chair stood beneath the window, with a stack of books atop the desk.<\/p>\n

I had never seen so many books, and thought that this family must be very wealthy. I saw my traveling pack in the corner, but there was no sign of my weapons. My tunic had been washed and repaired.<\/p>\n

I suddenly remembered my money kept in a secret pocket inside my tunic. I clutched frantically and felt the purse beneath the shirt, the weight of the money still there. The movement sent a bolt of pain through me so sharp that I gasped.<\/p>\n

\u201cEasy.\u201d The word came from my left and just behind me.<\/p>\n

I turned my head. A woman sat on a low stool beside the bed. She was short, with strong hands stained faintly with safflower dye. It was the woman who had stood at the doorway, though she no longer seemed as fearsome as she had then. Even if no one had told me, I would have known she was my aunt, as she looked so much like my father she could have been his twin. Maybe she was his twin, for all I knew. She was a beautiful woman, lean and strong, with smooth features and high cheekbones. It occurred to me for the first time that if she was beautiful, perhaps my father was handsome. I had never thought of him that way.<\/p>\n

\u201cYour purse is intact,\u201d she said. \u201cWe are not thieves. You are safe here.\u201d She held a damp cloth, and now she reached out and wiped my face with it, as if I were a much younger child. Then she helped me sit just enough to sip from a cup. The water was cool and tasted faintly of some bitter root. I grimaced.<\/p>\n

\u201cIt will help,\u201d she said. \u201cMy husband boiled it with herbs for the fever. Now stay here, do not move.\u201d She rose and stepped out of the room, and a moment later, the man I\u2019d encountered at the door earlier stepped into the room. His face was dark and handsome, with a thick black mustache and inquiring black eyes. His hair fell to his shoulders in soft waves. Behind him peered the boy I had seen behind him at the door, his eyes bright and curious.<\/p>\n

\u201cHi,\u201d the boy said. \u201cI\u2019m Haaris.\u201d<\/p>\n

Questions<\/h2>\n

\u201cHush, do not speak to him,\u201d the father said. He nodded to me. \u201cI am Zihan Ma. I am a healer. How is the shoulder?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt hurts,\u201d I said honestly.<\/p>\n

\u201cThat\u2019s normal.\u201d He stepped forward and laid a hand on my forehead. \u201cThe fever has broken, alhamdulillah<\/em>.\u201d Gently, he pulled the tunic off my shoulder. A strip of cloth was wrapped around my upper arm to hold the bandage in place. With quick, practiced fingers, he loosened the cloth around my arm and lifted the edge of the bandage.<\/p>\n

Cool air touched the wound. I hissed.<\/p>\n

\u201cHold still.\u201d He studied it for a moment, then nodded, satisfied. \u201cThe flesh is no longer angry. It will leave a scar, but you will keep the arm.\u201d<\/p>\n

The boy edged closer. \u201cCan I see?\u201d he whispered.<\/p>\n

\u201cLet him breathe.\u201d Zihan Ma glanced down at me. His eyes were measuring, weighing me as my father used to weigh a prospective victim with a single glance. \u201cYou can stay another day and night to rest, but then you must leave. This is not a hospital, nor an orphanage. We cannot care for you.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBut -\u201d I stammered. I felt as if I’d just been struck in the stomach. \u201cWhere will I go? I have no one else.\u201d<\/p>\n

Jade Lee touched my arm gently. \u201cWhere are your parents?\u201d<\/p>\n

I breathed deeply, trying to get myself under control. \u201cMy mother died when I was seven. My father, Yong Lee, went to fight the invaders. They say he is dead. I came here to find you.\u201d<\/p>\n

Jade Lee drew her head back, staring at me. \u201cWhat is your name?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI am Darius Lee, son of Yong Lee, son of Cai Lee.\u201d That was all I knew of my ancestry.<\/p>\n

\u201cEh?\u201d Jade Lee seized me by the shoulders. \u201cDarweesh? Is it really you? Of course it is, look at you! You look just like your mother. I am your aunt!\u201d She seized me and embraced me tightly, and I went completely stiff. No one had ever hugged me except my mother, and my father just that one time. Sensing my discomfort, she pulled away again. \u201cYou say Yong is dead?\u201d Her voice softened. \u201cWas it the drinking?\u201d<\/p>\n

I shook my head. \u201cHe quit drinking in the end. He enlisted in the army and died fighting the invaders. The Mayor would not let me stay on the farm alone, even though I brought in the peanut crop by myself.\u201d<\/p>\n

She looked stunned. \u201cHe enlisted? But why? He never cared about anything but himself, and certainly never cared about politics or patriotism. He did not even care about his faith.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cRats destroyed our crop. I believe… I think he wanted to do something for me. To provide me with a future.\u201d I shrugged. \u201cWe never spoke of such things.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHow did you get the shoulder wound?\u201d Zihan Ma asked. His tone was firm but not accusatory.<\/p>\n

\u201cTwo robbers attacked me in the town. A constable stopped them.\u201d I did not mention that I had sliced a man\u2019s face open.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou smelled strongly of wine. Are you a drunk like your father?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cHusband!\u201d Jade Lee rebuked. \u201cThat is no way to speak of the dead.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cIt is the living I am worried about. You know what Yong was like.\u201d<\/p>\n

Zihan Ma\u2019s words angered me, but I restrained myself and spoke calmly. \u201cI do not drink. I poured wine over the wound to clean it. And my father was more than what you say.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWhy do you carry weapons?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cThe dao was a parting gift from my father. The spear, too, was his.\u201d I did not tell him that I had killed two men with the dao. That was definitely not something he needed to know.<\/p>\n

A Plea<\/h2>\n

It was obvious that Zihan Ma was not happy about me being here, and suspected that I brought trouble to his door. Maybe he was right. My whole life had been a struggle. I was like a piece of metal being shaped by a blacksmith. There might be a moment of quiet, but another hammer blow was coming soon enough.<\/p>\n

But I sensed that Zihan Ma was a good man. Judging by Haaris\u2019s health and apparent innocence, and Jade Lee\u2019s overall well-being, I knew that I would not be beaten here, I would not be cursed. I would be fed and treated decently, and I needed that so badly, I was desperate for it. I had told myself that I could take to the road and survive on my own, stealing and grifting, but now that I sat in this comfortable home, with hot food on the table, I cringed at the thought of leaving.<\/p>\n

\u201cSir,\u201d I said. \u201cMa Shushu.\u201d (It was hopeful of me to address him formally as Uncle Ma). \u201cIf you\u2019ll let me stay, I won\u2019t be a burden. I brought in two peanut crops on my own, without help. I had a cow. I\u2019m used to hard work. I know what my father was like, everyone does. But I won\u2019t steal from you or make trouble.\u201d<\/p>\n

I reached into my coat, took out my purse, and tried to empty it onto the bed. But my hand shook, and the nine gold coins spilled out, some onto the bed and some rolling across the floor. \u201cI\u2019m sorry, I\u2019m sorry.\u201d I was growing increasingly panicked. \u201cThis is the money from my father’s enlistment, and the monthly salary he sent, and from my last peanut crop. You see, I have no need to steal. You can take it. You\u2019ll see how hard I work. Please.\u201d<\/p>\n

With the last word, my voice broke, and I began to sob. I was deeply ashamed of this, and pulled my tunic over my face. I had not even wept for my father\u2019s death, and here I was crying to be allowed to stay in the home of virtual strangers. My aunt leaned in quickly and pulled me to her.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou poor boy,\u201d she said. \u201cOf course you can stay. Isn\u2019t that right, husband?\u201d<\/p>\n

I pulled out of my aunt\u2019s embrace and wiped my nose and eyes with my coat.<\/p>\n

\u201cPlease, Daddy,\u201d Haaris said. \u201cLet him stay.\u201d<\/p>\n

Zihan Ma gave a slight nod. \u201cAll this pleading is unnecessary. You are family, Darweesh. Of course, you may stay; that is a given.\u201d Haaris had already picked up the fallen money, and Zihan Ma returned it to me. \u201cKeep your money, put it away.\u201d<\/p>\n

From that moment on, I was part of the family. I always addressed my aunt as \u201cLee Ayi\u201d – Aunt Lee – and Zihan Ma as Ma Shushu.<\/p>\n

Recovery<\/h2>\n

They let me sleep again after that, and the rest of the day blurred. In the evening, Lee \u0100y\u00ed changed my bandage, then fed me a delicious chicken soup that, by itself, nearly made the entire ordeal worthwhile.<\/p>\n

After that, Haaris sat cross-legged on the floor and told me stories of the goats and the donkeys and the cat named Bao, as if he had decided that words alone could keep me alive. The younger donkey, he said, loved to eat watermelon. \u201cHe takes huge bites,\u201d he laughed. \u201cGobbles it right down to the rind.\u201d I tried to imagine this, and found myself smiling. At the same time, I was a bit jealous, as I had never eaten watermelon myself!<\/p>\n

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The next morning, I woke to feel thin, hot needles pricking the skin around my shoulder; I tensed, but Ma Shushu\u2019s voice came calm and unhurried: \u201cBreathe. In and out. Let the qi move.\u201d I did not know what qi was, but I obeyed. I felt vastly improved. The pain in my shoulder was down to no more than a slight ache. By lunch time, I was out of bed and walking. My head felt clear, and my limbs were my own again.<\/p>\n

My aunt helped me sit on a cushion in the main room, then proceeded to set food on the table. It was a low wooden table polished smooth by years of elbows and bowls, and on it were dishes that made my stomach clench with hunger. Steamed greens glistening with sesame oil, soft white rice piled in a clay bowl, slices of beef in a dark, fragrant sauce, pickled radish, braised eggplant, and a tureen of soup filled with mushrooms and tofu. To me, it looked like a feast for a noble.<\/p>\n

Home Now<\/h2>\n

We sat on woven mats. The warmth of the room seeped into my bones, and for a moment I simply breathed in the scents – ginger and garlic, simmered broth, cooked meat. Lee \u0100y\u00ed took her seat beside Haaris, and Ma Shushu settled across from me, his knees cracking softly as he folded his legs.<\/p>\n

Before anyone lifted a bowl, he raised his hands slightly and said, \u201cBismillah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem<\/em>.\u201d Then he spoke a short prayer in a steady, calm voice, asking Allah to bless the food and the family and the guest who had come into their home.<\/p>\n

I stared blankly, unsure if I should bow my head. I desperately wished not to offend these people, but I could not bring myself to worship something that, for all I knew, was yet another statue. My aunt noticed. Something in her eyes softened – not pity exactly, but a recognition of what had been missing in my life all these years.<\/p>\n

\u201cDarweesh,\u201d she said gently, \u201cyour father taught you nothing of our faith, did he?\u201d<\/p>\n

Her tone was neither surprised nor harsh; rather, it held the sadness of someone confirming what they already suspected.<\/p>\n

\u201cNo, he did not,\u201d I said quietly. \u201cI once heard the name Allah, but I do not know what it means. My father… disliked the worship of statues. If that is what you do, I cannot participate. I do not mean to offend you, truly. Please forgive me.\u201d<\/p>\n

Ma Shushu said, \u201cStatues?\u201d and his face reddened. I had indeed offended him. But my aunt put a hand on his arm to still him, and spoke to me: \u201cWe do not worship statues. We are Hui people, you, me, and both your parents, and their parents, and so on. Our people have been Muslim for over a thousand years. We worship Allah, the Creator of all. The One who gave us life, provides this food, who has always existed and will always exist, and who knows all things. Unlike the idols, we did not create Him. He created us.\u201d<\/p>\n

I mulled this over, trying to conceive of such a being. \u201cBut,\u201d I finally said, \u201cif this – Allah – created all things, then who created him?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNo one. He is Eternal. This world, the sun and moon\u201d – she waved a hand – \u201cand the stars in the sky are like grains of sand in Allah\u2019s Hand. He is a merciful God, full of generosity and forgiveness. He hears our prayers and is closer to us than our own jugular veins.\u201d<\/p>\n

I swallowed, not knowing what to say. This sounded like a wonderful fairy tale. On the other hand, I\u2019d had a lifelong fascination with temples, and a yearning to lose myself in the worship of a deity who was actually worthy of my adoration. Wasn\u2019t that a sign of some knowledge inherent in my soul? Some recognition that such a being must exist?<\/p>\n

Ma Shushu put up a hand. \u201cIt does not matter for now if you believe as we do. You will be required to learn this religion, which is called Islam, but you will not be forced to practice it. Now let us eat while the food is hot.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cYes, Darweesh,\u201d my aunt said. \u201cHusband is right. You will learn. You are home now.\u201d<\/p>\n

The word home struck me strangely. I did not know what to do with it, so I pretended not to hear.<\/p>\n

We began to eat. The cat, Bao, appeared as if by magic, and sat beside Haaris, licking her lips. As we ate, Haaris dropped small pieces of beef fat for Bao, who chewed them so noisily that I almost laughed. I tried to restrain myself and to eat in a civilized way, but after the first few bites, my hunger overcame my manners – what few I had. The food was soft and warm and rich in ways I had forgotten were possible. When I devoured a bowl of rice and tofu too quickly, Haaris grinned and pushed the pot toward me. \u201cWe always cook plenty,\u201d he said. \u201cMama says growing boys eat like wolves.\u201d<\/p>\n

Aunt Lee swatted him lightly. \u201cDo not tease Darweesh.\u201d<\/p>\n

I cleared my throat. \u201cActually, Lee Ayi, my name is Darius. That is what my father always called me.\u201d<\/p>\n

She smiled. \u201cVery well. Darius. You gave us quite a fright, you know. You arrived at our door stinking of wine and rot, then fell like a sack of millet. We didn\u2019t know what to think. And your wound was already poisoned. One more day and you would have lost the arm. Alhamdulillah<\/em> that you got here when you did.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2026 walked,\u201d I said. \u201cI saw Auntie Ming in the town. She gave me directions.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAnd gave you a few sharp words I imagine,\u201d said Ma Shushu. \u201cShe never liked your father.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cNever mind that,\u201d Lee Ayi said. \u201cWe\u2019re just glad you didn\u2019t walk yourself into an early grave. Here. Eat.\u201d<\/p>\n

Duties<\/h2>\n

As we ate, Ma Shushu wiped his mouth with a cloth and cleared his throat. \u201cDarius,\u201d he said, \u201cyou will have duties here, as every member of this household does. Work must be done properly.\u201d<\/p>\n

I nodded, a piece of beef half-chewed in my mouth.<\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>\u201cFor now, we will give you light work only. But when you are recovered, you will rise at dawn with Haaris. First task: milk the cows. They must be calm, so move slowly and speak softly. When they are milked, let them and the donkeys out to graze in the west field. After that, shovel the dung from the stalls\u2014take it to the compost heap behind the barn. Then feed the chickens and collect the eggs before the sun grows strong. The goats receive their feed as well, and check that none have wandered into the safflower rows.\u201d<\/p>\n

I was nodding along. \u201cYes, Ma Shushu.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cGood. When the morning tasks are done, you will return to the house for lessons. Reading, writing, arithmetic, and the basics of our deen.\u201d<\/p>\n

I had no idea what he meant by deen<\/em>, but I remained quiet, and he went on:<\/p>\n

\u201cIn the afternoon, you are free. The hired hands tend to the fields. You may help them if you wish, but it is not required.\u201d<\/p>\n

Nothing he said dismayed me. Compared to fighting off rats with a shovel, killing thieves in my doorway, or tending a field alone from dawn until darkness, these tasks felt almost light. The idea of studies was strange, but not frightening.<\/p>\n

\u201cI understand,\u201d I said. \u201cI can do all of it.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCertainly you can,\u201d he replied. His voice held no doubt, only calm assurance.<\/p>\n

My Lee Ayi refilled my bowl again, and this time I forced myself to eat slowly. Haaris asked questions about my father, my farm, crops, cow, and my dao. I answered what I wished and ignored the rest. The soup warmed my chest; the rice softened the edges of my hunger; the quiet murmur of family around a table – something I had never known – settled over me like a heavy blanket I did not want to shrug off.<\/p>\n

For the first time since leaving home, the tightness in my chest eased.<\/p>\n

\u201cYour God, Allah,\u201d I asked. \u201cDoes He have a temple?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cWe call it a masjid,\u201d Ma Shushu replied. \u201cThere are many. There is one in town, you probably walked past it.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cDoes it have a pool with carp?\u201d<\/p>\n

Haaris grinned widely. \u201cIt does! How did you know? And there\u2019s a cat that sleeps there too. And it has soft carpets and pretty designs on the walls.\u201d<\/p>\n

Old Friends<\/h2>\n

When the meal was finished, Lee Ayi brought out a small plate of sweetened peanuts, roasted and glazed. I stared at them, at the familiar shape and smell. My father had grown peanuts with his bare hands, cursing the heat and the rats and the soil itself. He had tried to build something that would provide. These peanuts were nothing like ours, for they were larger, sweeter, and coated with honey. But they brought my father\u2019s face to my mind in a way that hurt with a sweet kind of pain.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou are safe here,\u201d my aunt said again, as if answering a question I had not spoken.<\/p>\n

I lowered my gaze and nodded. I believed her, though some part of me was sure that something would happen to wreck it. Such comfort, food, and care were not meant for me; they never had been.<\/p>\n

That night, the cat, Bao, tried to climb into my small bed. I pushed her away. I was still mourning the loss of Far Away, and was not about to replace him with some old farm cat. Bao hissed, and went to Haaris\u2019s bed instead.<\/p>\n

When everyone was asleep, I crawled out of bed and padded silently to the small storage room where my weapons had been placed. I took the dao in its scabbard and strapped it to my back. My aunt said this was a safe place, and I believed her, but I couldn\u2019t truly comprehend that word, safe<\/em>. How could anyone guarantee that? I had been on my own for a long time, and had killed men in my own home; men who had come to murder me. Safety was in my hands, not anyone else’s. Safety was something I purchased with daily training, sweat, blood, and aching muscles. Sleeping without a weapon felt like sleeping with my hands tied behind my back.<\/p>\n

Returning to bed, I pulled the blanket over me. My shoulder still ached, but pain and I were old friends. Pain, hunger, fear, loneliness. These were real things, things I believed in and trusted, because they were honest.<\/p>\n

I thought about the – what had Ma Shushu called it – the masjid? The Muslim temple, with its thick carpets and outdoor pool. The concept of childhood was alien to me, but when I imagined it, I thought of sitting beside the pool, trailing my fingers in the water, and watching the fish, without worry or fear. Perhaps I could go to the masjid one day and watch the carp, and listen to the prayers, and be a child for a while. If such a thing was ever meant for me.<\/p>\n

My eyelids grew heavy, and I slept.<\/p>\n

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